This week I used courage multiple times. The hardest time was when I found out that the position I was running for was against another girl in the grade above me who, while not fit for the position, is fairly popular with everyone. I was offered the chance to run for a different one unopposed, but I knew that I would not be happy with it, so I decided that I would stick my ground, even if I know I won't get it. I think that this was a good choice for myself, because it is better to have tried and failed than not tried at all.
This week I had to use courage when at my last choir concert of the year. While everyone was waiting backstage, people were being really loud and not listening, so I had to use courage to help calm everyone down. Although, I could have helped out more, but with all the chaos, I was not comfortable taking as much charge as I could have. Since I did no help out as much as I should have, it was seriously chaotic, and I kind of thought that someone might die. Also this week, I ran for Vice President for both Choir Council and for Student Council.
This week I used courage to help my friend choreograph a dance for out choir concert. While helping her come up with what we were going to do did not need courage, helping her teach it to my choir did. I had to show the class along with her how the dance went, and a lot of the time I had to tell the class in a loud voice to be quiet, which for me is sometimes hard to be loud and demanding in front of a large group of people. I feel like this was a good experience for me, because I really need to get used to unscripted public speaking before I graduate high school.
This week I used courage to decide to run for Vice President for Choir Council. It was a hard decision for me, because while I really want to do it, I doubted whether or not I should do it. I was feeling really down, and thinking there wasn't a point to running when I wouldn't get it anyways. However, I then realized that a lot of people know who I am and like me, so therefore I have a higher chance, especially compared to who I am running against. So I told my choir teacher I would be doing it, and afterwards I felt a lot better about myself, because tons of people came up and told me they would vote for me. While I might not get it, I am still very happy with myself for putting myself out there.
This week I used courage to audition for a couple solos for a choir concert, even though I didn't think I would get one. I did my best, and put my all in it, bu I still didn't get it, which I am okay with. I am just proud of myself for doing it anyways. I also used courage to inform my choir teacher that I was not happy that for the quotes on the back of our t-shirts, that one of the quotes I had requested was not on the ballot for when we voted. Since I brought this up, he did a re-vote the next day, and it was a stunning majority for the quote I had requested.
When at home, I love singing around the house, but I don't like to do it when my family is home, because I constantly am worrying that they are judging me, and in doing so, I have not been practicing my songs for voice lessons as much as I should, so I used courage to get over that and practice my songs more. Sadly, I did not use courage in another situation, in which I should have told a girl in my section in choir that she was the one that sang super off and loud at our state choir performance when she asked me, and I should of so that she knows she needs to fix it and listen better.
This week I did not use courage well. I should have used it when I was having a serious conversation with my parents, but I couldn't not work up the courage to say what I wanted to. Also, at youth group we were having an open discussion about real life problems, and I wanted to say something to contribute to the conversation, but I was unable to work myself up to do it. Then I was also unable to freely speak my mind at multiple periods when talking with people,
This week I used courage to tell my mom that I wanted to take voice lessons, and I had my first one on Monday with my old choir teacher. I also used courage to express my feelings about how my section in choir was doing with the music to them without chickening out.
This week I haven't used courage as much as I should have, but I think that I have used it. I flat out told my parents that I didn't want to take the classes they wanted me to next year, and that I actually really liked my schedule, and that if they wanted me to actually be happy and really try in my classes next year they should approve of my choices.
So this week my use of courage has been more prominent than weeks past. In P.E. we have started a soccer unit, and during the game, I actually try and play; going after the ball, getting it away from the rival team and to my team. Also, I used courage on Wednesday when I helped at the middle school choir concert, and I helped control the middle schoolers while they were in the seats, making sure they were being good. I had to use courage when they would try and talk back, and be polite even though they would be getting upset with me. It was quite rewarding though when the concert was over, and I knew that they weren't as obnoxious as they would have been if I hadn't used courage.
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